I really want to write something, I haven't for so long. Words don't come that easily for people like me. But theres a million things running through my head atm. And even though i'm trying to copy down what I scanned from the almighty chemistry god jonochan's perfect prac book,I'm so lazy that I ceeebs. So whatever. I'll list what i'm thinking of, in no particular order.

-People must really respect the modest smart people. Its like, there are some people who are just so smart and so kind and everything, that even if they get a million times better than you in every subject, you can't help but admire their talent and whatnot. Like Ying.. and lenny... and tammymum... and GEMMA AND STELLA OMG. ! and that ivan kid. wow i could go on. :S

-Feel dumb lool. After getting back modern history and english today.. sometimes wonder if my asian parents bribed my way into baulkham hills or something like that.

-Wonder how couples work. Like, sometimes don't you see the perfect couple and just wonder how they make it last?. Like, don't they get bored/annoyed/sick wtvr! of each other?. Wish/hope I have the same thing with somebody but at the moment, feel like its a lost cause due to excessive hibernation during study season and other shortcomings.

-Marvel at how pretty some people are, but also how bitchiness etc. can be an instant turn-off, at least for me. its like, i think it makes a person so much uglier. And how a really beautiful personality can make people more attractive because ultimately, you want to be with someone who you love to be with right?.

-Thinking of that cooool conversation me and the TMO had today, about hugh-ge (ha!) bums, formal and other things.

-Thinking about popularity and how meaningless it is, and how in little more than a year, it'll all be over and how everything will be forgotten so there's kind of no point of segregating yourself from other groups/people cos in ten years, no one's gonna remember you as the kid who kind of hung out in the cool group.

-Also thinking of what a big fat hypocrite I am. LOL, shallow things like that don't even matter so why does it affect me like so.

-So many people I admire for having the guts to be themselves, weird as that may be. Think thats so brave, so kudos.

-Must be hard going to a new school just like snap. Love to people like taylor and cynthia and many others, who've found it so easy. Honestly, if I was the new kid, I'd be the kid tucked away in the corner reading a Cambridge book just for fun.

-Stressing about physics. Everyone's so INCREDIBLY SMART. >:(

-Wondering what it would be like to go to a white schoool. Would probably be in the asian nerd group, that would probably make me study harder actually, because studying would be the thing that made me stand out from all the hot white chicks loool fair enough. And yeah cos studying is SUUCH a turn on. -_____-

-Wondering if i've changed this year, and if it really has been an improvement from my former self. Hopefully i've gotten smarter lools, slightly more attractive and more thoughtful. dream on ae. ==

-Hoping that Clay wants to go formal with me.

-Also hoping that ilona enjoyed her surprise party. Haha, i managed to trick her, first time i've ever fooled anyone. :S And thank you to Oliver Moore for being a supersmart and very good designated driver as well as ying chin and others who chipped in for the pressssent.

-Wondering if anyone has actually bothered to read my mindless drivel right to the end. And if you have, LOOLS congratulations, and don't think any less of me aha. Its just, i really wanted to blog and theres so much garbage running through my head.
-Thanks for reading, hope you've .. enjoyed .. yourself xo